February 2012
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if H is all my life will be about, then I'm...
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nope. will not pickle.
why would you lie to me like that. Why.
nope. not a question. it’s a demand.
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It's hard to go on when it feels like i'm doing...
is this goodbye.
really not my fucking week.
and it’s like I’m so tired of everything even tears won’t suffice the comfort that I need to relieve just a quarter the depression and pressure that I feel. and I lie down hoping to get some escape but instead my mind runs into a million scenarios that had happend in the span of thirty minutes.
and it’s a vicious cycle of blame and vexation, that I only want some sort of...
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fuck this week.
fuck this daay.
fuck my liifeee.
Stop talking to me as if you know my life.
You don’t know that I want to give up, that I want to stay in a hole and live as a hermit, and sleep through all this right now.
You don’t know. you don’t fucking know.
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*me, sans seatmate in this two-person table....
N: You're all alone?
Me: On Valentine's? Yeah.
N: *facepalm* I shouldn't have asked.
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TODAY IS SO NOT MY DAY.
EVERYBODY FUCK OFF
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I DON'T UNDERSTAND.
SERIOUSLY. HOW CAN YOU EXPECT PEOPLE TO BE PROFESSIONAL TOWARDS YOU WHEN YOU CAN’T ACCEPT A SIMPLE DEADLINE.
THEN YOU TAKE HALF THE CREDIT OF WHAT I DO. IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND THAT I NEED IT BY MONDAY. BY MONDAY. TO BE POSTED UP. AND YET IT’S WEDNESDAY AND IT’S NOT EVEN PRINTED YET.
MY GOD. I SWEAR NEXT YEAR IF YOU BECOME SOME SORT OF OFFICER I WILL FUCKING RIP MY HEAD...
Don't we all just hate dead conversations.
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Queuing 365 :)
yayness :)
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Feb 5. 2012.
today. fifteen minutes. 2 milestones.
So I talked to her, about the million things I always talk about, and I was exploding and laughing when she approached us. I smiled, wherein months before I never really thought of ever talking to her again. I was awkward, scrambling for words to say, topics to talk about, but I made it through. I talked to the girl who screwed up my views on church and...
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WILD&FREE: I run. That’s what I do. The moment... →
camiejuan:
I run. That’s what I do. The moment things get a little too much for me, I run. I retreat from the people who care about me the most. I think I have an irrational fear of needing someone so much, of being dependent on someone else entirely aside from myself, of being picked apart for all my…
“I have an irrational fear of needing someone so much, of being dependent on...
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if I just disappear would you even miss me.
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2/5/2012
been doing photoshop work all afternoon. I don’t really mind.
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miserable.
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When it's all said and done, I'll be just a speck...
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You’re like cold water, all over my hands. Leaving the impression of being clean, of being moist, of being there. It’s comforting, it’s relaxing, it’s amazing. But I know one day you will dry up, and I shudder at the thought, and cry at the realization that the time will come and the heat will take you away.
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and I don’t know, maybe just, somewhere, deep inside me, I was hoping you’d do the things you did before. Maybe a simple reply would have been nice. But that’s okay, I don’t really mind. I should stop hoping before all this plunges to chaos.
January 2012
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Sometimes I wish you’d just tell me what you’re thinking. You have no idea how your mood affects me.
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Speaking from experience, I never remembered the conflicts, I only remember the...
– Processing session life lessons.
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i just want to die
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#hellweek
right now I just wanna bottle up my frustrations and hate and other feelings into a jar and release the tears in a corner of the room.
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mahirap makipaglaban sa masayang bagay.
ang labo. :)))
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lalalaallaalalalalalalalla tagalog post.
hindi ko alam kung bakit ko tinignan, alam kong mabbv ako. Well ok. not really. But I don’t know what got into me.
So much for a happy day.
No. must. fight. the. urge. to. be. blarjfsdjfsjdkfdssf
Miel. I need your arm. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
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Today is a happy day.
Despite the tension and the stress (and the hate). I guess sometimes all you need is to step out of the picture.
Tonight is also the night I said. ah fuck it.